Best Before

Confidence in writing: 0

Time spent writing: ALOT

The last 4 years I have lived with this little thing called chronic pain, I have a constant headache 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Yep we spend a lot of time together, we know each other pretty well but still do not get along at all.

I sustained a traumatic brain injury doing what I did best – cycling and from that day forth I suppose ive changed. I look the same, I still have a ridiculously big smile on my face and I don’t have a cast on my arm indicating I have anything wrong with me. Yep I kind of just smack that smile on my face and get on with it.

I write a lot, usually it just became a to do list. It was more getting stuff out and onto the page with the intention that il deal with that emotional crap later. I put that all in the il sort through that one out another time file. However I didn’t realize subconsciously that by getting it out, acknowledging some feelings (sometimes) and just expressing myself was the best thing. I wasn’t able to talk to anyone, a lot of the stuff was unimaginable to most. So my little black book was key.

From loosing what felt like everything I considered myself best before October the 7^th 2009 but as time passes I have come to realize that I haven’t expired and the best is yet to come.